I understand completely TensawRiver. I am 100% satisfied with this life God has built for me. No need to try to escape it. Sometimes its hard work, sometimes theres heartaches and sorrows but they are mine and put into my life for me to learn and gain from, all of those heartaches beinging me closer to him. "This is a land of hills and valleys". Instead of drowning out the pain, christians shouls seek the Lord in our pain and find the good he has in it for us. "All things work together for the good of those who love the Lord who are called according to his purpose", thats good and bad things. I want to get the good God promised out of all of them.