Sounds like a troll. OP, you're pretty mature in age to just fall apart emotionally.

"The swamp is really full of bugs.", you said. Well, yeah. So are planted pines and other types of terrain. Are you that inexperienced as a hunter or outdoorsman?

I'm the last one to want to waste an animal (except pigs, yotes, coons & opossums; I chose turkeys over these animals) and really, I don't want any animal to suffer but I wouldn't let such an episode ruin my life and stop me from hunting responsibly.

I still think you threw out a big hook and you're reeling it in.