Isaiah 5:20 Woe to those who call evil good and good evil, who put darkness for light and light for darkness, who put bitter for sweet and sweet for bitter.
Hey guys. My BCR-ABL readings, that is, the measuring stick that shows how much cancer is in my blood spiked up from approximately 14% to about 53% this past week in between 2 months of tests. I still go to that black psychological place when that happens. I’ve been as high as 99% when I first came to UAB. The drugs I take keep the cancer levels in check, but they also kill healthy blood. It’s a balancing act and a tradeoff. I’m one of the fraction of patients that respond that way.
If you’re so inclined, Google the “Philadelphia Chromosome” as it relates to CML Leukemia. If I go into the “Blast” phase, I’ll say my goodbyes. I’ve discarded the idea of a self inflicted end. That is the most selfish thing I could do.
I still get scared and do wonder about my future and that’s what I’ve been dealing with. I’m not looking for attention and so I just back out of here sometimes and I don’t respond much. I ended a perfect relationship so that an innocent person could live her life and have a family without becoming a full time caretaker. That was heartbreaking, but realistic.
Add that to the fact that several other members have just learned they are sick, and that TRULY weighs as heavily on me as my own thing does. I wish I could take everybody’s burden and just add it to my account, but it doesn’t work that way.
Please be sure to reach out to those other sick folks you know on here, just a PM would encourage them. The initial prayer offers are great, but remembering to check back with them occasionally really helps some of them.
As for me, Larry is my rock on here. He keeps me centered, and has taught me that being concerned for others takes my mind off ME.
That’s enough for now. Too much info, actually.
Just a response or even an insult on me in a thread makes me smile.
JMudler, it’s proper to always include a pic or video of Zoe Kravitz as the character “Toast, The Knowing” when referencing any “Mad Max, Fury Road” meme. She’s a cutie and comes from two of my favorite folks. https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Zoë_Kravitz
I don’t know how this bio didn’t highlight so you can just click it.
Hang in there Deadwood! I hate Cancer with a passion so do me a favor and whoop its ass!!! You be careful around that Larry fella and don’t let him spike your drink
We’re not dead. We just smell that way. Dayum. - AC870
Yessir! I’m always gonna shoot what makes me happy and I want everyone else to do the same! If you shoot one be proud of it and don’t worry what anyone else thinks. - SJ22
You men that fight these battles daily and come on here and make small talk and try to find normalcy in your life inspire me. Yall keep on pushing and I will keep praying.
That sucks man but your attitude is good and you're still breathing so there is still hope. Keep writing your story as long as there is ink in your pen.
"Political debate: when charlatans come together to discuss their principles" - Bauvard
Romans 8:1-2 "There is therefore now no condemnation to them which are in Christ Jesus, for the law of the Spirit of Life in Christ Jesus has made me free from the law of Sin and Death"
Keep fighting, my friend! I always look forward to your posts.
I firmly believe that a double gallows should be constructed on the East Lawn of The White House. Politicians who willfully and shamelessly violate their oath to uphold and defend the Constitution of the United States of America should be swiftly tried and, upon conviction, publicly hanged at sunup the day after conviction. If multiple convicts are to be hanged they can choose with whom to share the gallows or names shall be drawn from the hangman's hat to be hanged 2 at a time.
Praying for you Woody! Hang in there. New treatments are frequently coming out for blood cancers. I know my mom’s hematologist told her about a new treatment for her CLL she will try next. Maybe something new will come up for your CML.
Praying for you Woody. There's a lot of health issues running in this forum right now. Think of all you guys often and when y'all post it's uplifting to see you are having a good day or a good reminder of the prayers I need to say when you post that you are having a bad day.
What you do today, you have to sleep with tonight.