All this shows me I need to get my ass off the pity train and come up with a game plan to fight it. Hell yes I’m only 4 days days into it. I think after the surgery tomorrow they’ll turn me over to an oncologist to start treatment. When you wallow in your pity there is always someone else that is fighting a harder battle and you should be thinking of them and not yourself. All that’s ahead of me hang in there were going to make it