A lot of good advice here, mostly from hard-earned experience. I would suggest making a list of some of these points and trying to focus on it. When you think that you just don't know how you're going to get through it all, just remember, your children are going to need you. If you aren't in this world for them, who is going to be left that they can really trust and depend on. There were a lot of days that my kids were the only reason I could think of the keep going. It's hard, but it WILL get better. Your experience will help you eventually find someone you can love and trust.