Howdy folks! I have been busy with life lately and didn't get to check in like I thought I would.
Y'all are a hoot!

I'm glad I went out there for two reasons. One was my bucket list to drive out west and see what I been missing. Its beautiful out there but its definitely not for me. I couldn't live out there. I crave these green pastures and green mountains with trees. It felt like Hiroshima and Nagasaki was dropped and everything was trying to grow back.

I got rid of Hanna a few days after I got back in town. I knew she was sketchy about having faith in God. I thought I could change that. Little did I know, she just ain't the type to listen. She wouldn't even let me finish talking. She is a nice girl but not the one for me.

She wants a man to take control and do his part. I hear that from a few other strong women I know. In Hanna's case, she doesn't have it in her to be a little submissive and let the man do his part. I had fun and I had to go out there for personal satisfaction. To know if she was the one after all these years. What gets me is the mask. They act like they are cool, laid back and understanding. After they get comfortable, the mask slowly comes off. She had me fooled a little but not completely. I knew not to expect too much from anyone. I just didn't think the mask would come off so quickly. Maybe that was her way of getting rid of me. Who knows. I don't think she knows who she is.

I broke it off with her because of the Reiki stuff. I'm not cool with that. I kinda think some evil spirits were around her and her daughter. I wonder if she was sent by the devil to beguile me. Looking back at everything, that's the most logical feeling I got from it. She was so cool everyday for a couple months. When she saw she had me, she started showing another side of her. Very aggressive and reactive responses.

I think I made her mad when I refused her breakfast. I was exhausted from driving and she woke me up around 6am and asked me. I said no thanks and fell back asleep. That caused friction too.

She would always try to cut me down I noticed. Saying my house was a cute "small" house. I always built her up saying how nice her house was. I don't want a big house. I'm a simple guy. I want to down grade from the house I have now because I don't need a 3 bedroom house with just me and my son. All I want is a big shop and 2 bedroom house.

I made it clear to her that I'm not like most people. I have excellent credit but drive a beater truck. I don't care what people think about me. Y'all know that. I don't take myself too serious. I like to have fun and cut up.

I met her kids for no reason.
I guess she thought she would finally be herself and id put up with it. I won't be another doormat. I got rid of one bad apple and won't keep another.
I gotta have a woman that claims God.