I dont really know how to start or say this but I could use some help, I'll try to be short and to the point. After 20 years of service to this great nation and patriots like you all (including Larry) Im at a loss. As some know I lost several close family members in 2019, my only blood related uncle, my dad, and two weeks ago a close uncle. My wife and I have grown distant and almost to the point of just coexisting. I dont sleep for chit, feel like im up 24/7, and I am drinking just to get by. Im honestly not sure If me and my wife will make it, I have talked to a divorce lawyer and with her, she is trying to make it work but lm sure she is as tired as I am.

I love my kids, they are smart, funny, and more intelligent than I will ever be. Austin my 11 y/o calm and cool as can be. Bella my only girl, is smart as the come as is truly a natural leader, or a future CEO as she says some day.... I laugh with her but have no doubt that she will succeed in life. Noa is my right hand man. At six years old he is more of a smart arse than I have ever been, and extremely intelligent. He never amazes me with his smart remarks and intellect lol..

I dont have any anger towards my wife and honestly I could nt be mad if she left me tomorrow. She deserves better (possibly someone that will be at home with her and my kids may get a real dad.) I havent meant to ramble on Ive just been typing my thoughts tonight. Im honestly spechless and a little numb, I really dont know what to else say... I have a lot on me and cant get a break.