I'm about to head to rehearsal tonight for our church Easter program. I play the part of Peter. The setting is the Last Supper. Jesus has just announced to we disciples that one of us will betray Him. We flat out deny it. One by one, we each list our good works and all that we do for Him. But one by one, we come to the painful and introspective question, "Is it I?" My monologue ends this way......

"One morning He said, “Simon, put out into the deep and let your nets down for a catch.” I said, “Master, we have toiled all night and caught nothing. But at your word I will let down the nets.” We caught so many fish we had to summon other nearby boats to contain the catch. When we reached the shore, I fell at Jesus’ feet and cried out, “Depart from me, O Lord, for I am a sinful man.” But He told me that thereafter we would be fishers of men. In fact, He even changed my name from Simon to Peter which means The Rock. And when I confessed Him as the Christ, the Son of the Living God, near Caesurae Philippi, He said, “On this rock I will build my Church.” But a moment later when I protested against His going to Jerusalem to suffer death at the hands of evil men, He rebuked me and said, “Get thee behind me Satan.”

So, I am a mixture of good and evil, of Godliness and sinfulness. But, I want to prove to Him that my love for Him is sincere and genuine. Tonight, when He said one of us would betray Him, I promised to follow Him, even unto death. But he warned me that before the cock crowed twice, that I would deny Him three times. He prayed for me because He said that Satan wanted to sift me like wheat. Even the others call me the big fisherman, but in His presence, I feel small and unworthy. Will I deny Him tonight before the rooster crows? If I do, what will He do? Will He disown me? If I knew who the scoundrel was, I’d pierce his heart with this knife that I hold in my hand.

But maybe it would be my own heart that I would pierce! God, grant that it may not be so. Yet I keep wondering and saying to myself, “Is it I?”

Last edited by WildlifeBiologist; 02/19/18 06:28 PM.